It's hard to give yourself to people when you are not sure what they are going to do with you. I once opened myself up to someone (and I was thinking back on this because I wrote something about it somewhere...), someone I was starting to trust. And then it just stopped. They just shoved it right back to me. I don't want to have to always do things their way, to give them exactly what they say they want and then have then send my heart back to me.

And even though a lot of time has passed since I have been hurt this way, I can see how it has affected me, even though I shouldn't let it. It just makes me angry that this happened and it is probably still happening. The worst thing is, I think this happens to me alot because I am nice and people know that I won't lash back at them. Honestly, it is wrong to hurt people just because you can. Personally, I think it's sick.

It makes me never want to tell people what I'm really thinking, ever again.

I'm just angry.